My cell phone was stolen yesterday for the second time in nine months. Inside I was INFURIATED, ENRAGED, LIVID, and INSULTED to say the least! The freakin nerve of someone to come into MY office, go in MY desk drawer, and steal MY cell phone!!!! The fact that it was an IPhone is one thing BUT the disregard and disrespect for me as a compassionate, loving, and helpful human being is another! In the physical I was very calm and dismissive about the situation. It happened, life goes on is what I kept saying. I left work and sulked the whole night about that phone and even part of today. But then my mind got to going and I started thinking "Khadijah if someone was DESPERATE enough to still your cell phone than they must be worst off than you and NEED it. FORGIVE THEM!" FORGIVE- To grant free pardon and to give up all claim on account of an offence or debt....In most contexts, forgiveness is granted without any expectation of restorative justice. FORGIVENESS is the most HARDEST thing in the world for me to do. Not go back to school, not get a new job, not fight, not exercise, not diet, etc. The biggest battle I struggle with EVERYDAY is FORGIVENESS. I struggle with accepting that "things happen" and I should be okay with that because often times I'M NOT! But I have will power. Will power that will force me to believe that ultimately "things" do just happen. God makes them happen in that divine order to add purpose and meaning to the journey. But I will admit for a while there I was feeling a little down about the bumps I seem to encounter throughout MY journey. Then I looked at things on the bright side (because theres ALWAYS a bright side in my world) THINGS COULD BE MUCH WORST!!! I'm suffering the loss of a material possession when people are suffering greater losses such as family, homes, jobs, and their tranquility and piece of mind. I have blessing far more greater!

In my opinion there is no such thing as LUCK. There is only Gods blessings and what I've done to earn them. Some areas of my life are Beautifully blessed with love, peace, and stability and others are shot straight to hell! At a time those straight to hell areas were the only thing I focused on. Anything that I felt was wrong in my life is where all of my energy went to try to make it right. The glass was half empty! But by the grace of God I was introduced to some people who taught me to focus on the right. Lets work at strengthening the right and sooner or later you can understand and even appreciate the wrong. That was one of the BIGGEST learning experiences of my life. You mean to tell me being homeless, broke, a step away from unemployed, and depressed is going to some day be looked at as a blessing??? I said these people are OUT OF THEIR RABBIT MINDS!!! But as promised I worked at it. Improving the right. When the door and window of opportunity was closed I praised God in the hallway and in the rain for better opportunities to come. Afterwards blessings began to drop out of the sky and they have NOT stopped flowing since. I am so humbled and grateful for Gods mercy that I share it with the world! I'm NOT a highly religious person BUT I am a highly spiritual one and I know the spirit of God walks with me EVERYDAY. That is why I encourage my friends and family the same way those individuals encouraged me. Have faith that God can turn tragedy to triumph and watch a life you've only desired unfold before your very eyes.....

If you cannot be positive, atleast be quiet! -Joel Osteen OMG.....Sometimes I'm in the company of such NEGATIVE people that it makes my skin crawl. But what I've learned about the negativity is that its coming from a place of HURT! You can't see anything positive because you haven't seen anything positive. And not only do I send my condolences to those people but I also extend my helping hand. I understand that things have been rough but they have to first acknowledge that and afterwards look for the silver lining in the cloud. Whatever it is that you have been through, YOU SURVIVED! So lets just start from where you are right now. If you continue to speak the negativity it will soon come into existence, is that what you want for your future? All the negativity you spew out is a cry for help, I'm listening and I want to help in any way I can. The question is DO YOU WANT THE HELP? Are you tired of living this way? Are you ready to address the issues you've never even said outloud to yourself? The only way to move forward is to STOP looking backwards. Let go of the pain & anger because you SURVIVED it! Decide what are you going to do now and let the people who genuinely love and care about you HELP you! And trust me we want to because we already see you making an attempt to help yourself. I know its easier said than done but I am living proof that IT WORKS! I DON'T LOOK LIKE WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH. I'm not ashamed to share my experiences because I HAVE SURVIVED!!!! I could not be the woman I am today had I not had those experiences and I can't help the next woman survive her struggle if I don't share them! *We ALL Need Somebody To Lean On*

I still remember the very first day we met. I was a Freshman at L.I.U., sitting in my Sociology class on a snowy January evening when in walks a young lady with 6 inch Leather boots, a fierce Leather jacket, and a wrap that was layed to the gawdsssssssssss (2 snaps and a circle)! I remember thinking to myself the snow is atleast 2 feet deep where the hell is this heifer going in stilletos??? But I dismissed the thought as quickly as it came and started to prepare for class. I looked in my pocketbook and pulled out some MAC Lipgloss that I had just purchased. Litle miss 6" boots says to me "Thats form MAC?" I respond "yes" she says "is it new?" Now in my mind I'm thinking WHY DO YOU WANT TO KNOW but of course I have to be nice so I said "It was a gift!" Class began. After class lil miss 6 inch boots and I rode the 3 train together and she shared with me some information about herself. I didn't share too much thinking to myself "girl we don't have anything in common!" When I got off the train she said "Bye Khadijah! Get home safely...I smiled. Walking home from the train station, thinking about the series of events that took place that night made me feel bad.  Here it is I'm in a new school and somebody is actually trying to be friendly and I'm acting all Brownsville! (Long sory short, short story shorter) Here we are almost 10yrs later and she is still as sweet, beautiful, supportive, loving, understanding, successful, confident, uplifting encouraging, honest, and friendly as that first day in class. I notice we as women would rather condemn each other than support one another. That day in that class MY Kimmy took the opportunity and extended an olive branch and this friendship has been growing eversince! THANK YOU....Not only for taking the initiative but for teaching me that its okay to extend that same olive branch to other women. You've led by example, its greatly appreciated, you are a good friend and I love you! 

Everytime God closes a door he opens a window.... Today was a rough day for me. I'm learning one of the hardest lessons of my life which is to LEAVE THINGS AND PEOPLE IN THE PAST. Most of the people that are in my life today have been in my life for so long that its very HARD for me to let them go. Especially when I held expectations for them and they weren't fulfilled. I know that sounds crazy because me of all people is well aware that expectations lead to disappoitnments AND I HATE BEING DISAPPOINTED!!!! But I'm coming to realize as I let these people go that makes room for other people (and things) to come into my life. Things and people that are much NEEDED! Today I let go of a "situation" that I was being dragged through for the past 6yrs. (Long story short) We were friends, I made an attempt to become more, he didn't want that, he hurt my feelings, we separated, we reunited, he made an attempt to become more, I wasn't available, in due time I became available, and he became uninterested. Back and forth. Cat and Mouse. After a while I was like a Dog chasing my own tail, it wasn't worth it and neither was he! I LOVE him and we're going to remain friends but today I finally decided to address the elephant in the room. Which for any woman who has ever had any type of feelings for someone can understand is the HARDEST thing to do! No matter how much God shows you the obvious we still want to live in the fantasy. I couldn't any more. EVERYTIME GOD CLOSES A DOOR HE OPENS A WINDOW...I have to start bringing closure to the "situations" I'm hanging on to in my life and he was just step 1. One of the chaotic situations that I was refusing to address. No more of that and so long to him! Life is about constant movement and for me its ONWARD & UPWARD! SEE YOU AT THE TOP!

Well, well, well, well, well.....Just as everyone else I was tuned in, wine in hand, waiting to see what Evelyn had to say at Season 5's premier of the infamous BasketBall Wives. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.....I miss Royce and Jen!!!! They were very much needed tonight. Before I watched tonights season premier I watched the entire season 4 on Hulu. Evelyn and Shaunie talked alot about Jennifer's bad decision to press charges against Evelyn's assistant for slapping her. I distinctly remember Shaunie calling it a "mistake" so my question is was Chad's head butting disaster a "mistake" as well? I mean they were both physical altercations, whats the difference? But you guys can ponder that anywho Suzie looked absolutely CRAZY tonight!!! Tami I genuinely felt BAD for. To lose your Mom has to be the absolute worst feeling in the world so I had remorse for her and I also agreed with ALOT of what she said in regards to Evelyn and Chad. People (in my opinion) do deserve second chances and marriages should be worked out BUT I also feel like couples should discuss HARD LIMITS and if head butting was a HARD LIMIT for Evelyn Chad should have known that from the door. I guess he figured if all I have to do is tell you when I want to cheat (as Evelyn has expressed to him) than anything else is pretty much a go! Shaunie is PHONY...I've felt that from Season 1 and I'm very anxious to see the drama unfold between her and Tami, somebody NEEDS to call her out! Queen Bee or not.....Next Monday can't come fast enough!

So I had a longgggggggggggggggggggg conversation today with one of my forever friends (which is a friend who I've known FOREVER and no matter what we go through we'll ALWAYS be friends)and I must admit we have been distant because the dynamic of our friendship changed. And for her one of the things she said that kept her at a distance from me is that she wanted to be "right" when she came back to me. THAT HURT MY FEELINGS. And I'm 100% sure that it wasn't her intention to hurt my feelings but that statement did. When I leave this earth the one thing I want people to be able to say about me is no matter how wrong they were, no matter how rough it gets, no matter how bad things are I'M ONE OF THE PEOPLE THAT MY PEOPLE FEEL THEY CAN ALWAYS COME TO!!!! Of course because of who I am if I know you are worth more, can do more, and can have more yes I'm going to give you a piece of my mind BUT I'm still going to take you in, love you, and build you back up. Not to mention in my opinion FRIENDS are the people you turn to when things are wrong because of course you're going to attract all types of opportunist when everything in your life is going "right!" But the fact that one of my friends who has known me for forever thinks that they have to be "right" to be friends with me is something for me to look at about myself! Not to mention I'M NOT "RIGHT!" So I dont expect my people to always be but I do expect them to try...Are my expectations what is causing the distance between me and some of my friends???? Maybe....

STILL WORKING......

I FORGOT TO INCLUDE GOD IN MY PLANS....
I've always wondered why after all of my planning that none of my plans ever seem to work out. Why no matter how well I put it together it always seems to fall apart! I spent alot of time thinking about this and then finally I realized I CAN'T DO THIS ON MY OWN! So I looked for help from my family, then from my friends, then from my co-workers. I looked from help but everybody except the only one who could really help me.....GOD! I will be the first to tell you I'm not a very relligious person but I am a highly spiritual one! I have conversations with God everywhere, all the time! But all the while I'm so busy talking that I never took a pause to actually wait and listen for a sign or response. I FORGOT TO INCLUDE GOD IN MY PLANS! How could I think that any plans would work without him? So this time around I'm not including him in MY plans, I'm going to follow HIS plan! I'm going to shut my mouth and listen out for Gods response. Maybe if I stop talking I can actually listen..... 

This is Brittany Coleman the plus size fashion blogger behind Pockets & Bows. When I say I am IMPRESSED that is merely an understatement!!!! This is what women like me NEED to see. I am a person who NEEDS to be inspired, inspiration is what fuels my energy to go on. Tomorrow will only be week 1, 23 weeks to go! 24 weeks to not only save but change my life for the better. I plan on sharing my story because the same way I was inspired I want to be an inspiration for someone else. This time there is NO DAYS OFF, no breaks, no giving up!!! Theres only room for perserverance, resiliency, dedication and heart. All of the things I pride myself on having anyway.
*When They See The NEW Dijah Watch The Dope Boys Go Crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*

My, My, My, My!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The buzz over this record is crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! Let me be 100% honest when I say I AM VERY BORED WITH HIP HOP! I listen to Holy Grail (just that single) and a little Fab here and there. So I am THANKFUL to Kendrick Lamar for (in my Kevin Hart voice) puttin' fire on these b*tches! I will be honest and say I haven't even given Chief Keef, 2 Chainz, ASAP Rocky, Tyga or any of these new rappers a chance. I'm just not impressed! So Kendrick Lamar has certainly grabbed my attention, I just pray he can keep it. But being a Brooklyn native ALL of my faith is in FAB! Hov is not even in the runnings seeing as though he's the God so FAB I'm depending on you and I know you won't let me down....No disrespect to Kendrick Lamar and I truly respect your courage but RIP cause Loso is going KILL you!

I'm going to share something with you guys. December 13th 2005, the night my Dad died immediately after finding out I remember sitting in the bathroom and the first thoughts that entered my mind was I WISH EVERYBODY ELSE'S FATHER WOULD DIE TOO!!!! Smh...Its an ugly feeling. Looking back I genuinely feel bad about saying it but it was a feeling. MY feelings and I won't apologize for them. Your feelings are just that. YOUR feelings...As bad, and as reckless, and as painful, and hurtful as they may be, they are still YOURS!!!!! And there is no right or wrong about what you feel. Alot of people don't share their feelings in fear of being judged. Alot of people try to make others feel that their feelings dont matter or are insignificant. Yes they probably are insignificant to another individual but very sinificant to you because they're YOURS!!!! Sometimes we as women experience feelings that overwhelm us. Me, myself have gone through some feelings and emotions that damn near drove me crazy BUT the key to staying sane was being able to express those feelings no matter how harsh, strange, painful, or psycho they may be to someone who I trust and love. My suggestion is to let go of the guilt that what you feel is wrong and instead acknowledge those feelings, find out whats making you feel that way, find someone to express those feelings to and then try to work through them. We are living through some harsh times and EVERYBODY no matter how hard their struggle is and what they're going through need somebody to lean on!

So EVERYDAY I look for more and more reasons to stick with this workout ish.....I DO NOT LOVE IT, ITS NOT FUN FOR ME AND I DO NOT ENJOY IT! But I have to keep in mind that this will be beneficial in the long run., so its NEEDED! This pic is a 40lbs weight loss difference but its not enough! I have to push it to the limit. This is week one. I'm in pain. But I have to keep pushing! Keep me in prayer....

Some things and some people you have to find a way to be AT PEACE WITH....Not for the things or the people but for your own well being and sanity. My Dad just up and died! No warning, no discussions, no goodbye...Just poof....GONE!!! I'll NEVER be happy about it but I'M AT PEACE WITH IT. Only because EVERYDAY I Live my life doing atleast one thing to make him PROUD! I'm at peace with his sudden departure because I know he did NOT have to suffer. I'm at peace with him not being here because I got 23 BEAUTIFUL years with my Dad and I know some people who didnt get any with theirs. I'm at peace with him because while he was here he taught me some very VALUABLE lessons and showed me the meaning of unconditional LOVE.... I'm THANKFUL for the ability to be at peace with people and situations in my life, because of that I continue to grow!

So as I said.......THIS NEEDS TO BE DONE!!!! So on a Beautiful, Summer Friday night I'm pounding the pavement....Week 1 ladies & gentlemen, keep me in prayer!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LATE, GREAT, TALENTED, BEAUTIFUL WHITNEY HOUSTON...You have touched the lives of many through your music and your legacy continues to live on. REST IN PEACE

So I log on to twitter (by the way I'm back twitter.com/born_bossy) and as I'm going down my newsfeed I see Miss Info talking about the Jay & Dame reunion. I decided to go to her profile page and I found this video. Jay is so INSPIRATIONAL!!! Even when I saw him last year at Barclays I had to burst out crying because he gives so much hope! I look at him and it reminds me that I CAN'T give up on my dreams....He made it so so can I!!!! Is what I start to tell myself.....But looking at it in reality I CAN....Its just a matter of staying focused, determined, and dedicated! EVERDAY I look for reasons to be inspired. This video today gave me my dose for the day. Anything or one that motivates and inspires me to follow my dreams is exactly the type thing or person I NEED to be around!

My girl MonifC has done it againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!! The grown and sexy Fall collection has dropped and I am in awe....This one here is called the "Natalie" Matte Jersey Jumpsuit. Its a MUST HAVE!!! Dont say I didnt put you'll on....Make sure you check out MonifC.com she's worth it!

I LIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HUNTY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess with my girl approaching her 32nd birthday, fresh off of a world tour, and being a Mom and wife she wanted to try something new....I can relate!!!! Going short is risky but at the same time its liberating! Its saying to the world I KNOW I'M BEAUTIFUL WITHOUT THE ADDITIVES AND PRESERVATIVES!!! And this is not to disrespect the additives and preservatives in any way....Shoot I will throw on some light make up and a 22inch weave in a heartbeat but sometimes its good to switch it up! I think she looks absolutely STUNNING and I LOVE the CHANGE!!!! Anybody that knows me knows I'm all about the CHANGE....Its NEEDED!!!!

We sometimes say we need a change,
As a change is good as a rest
But often fail to ponder
If change is for the best.

When we feel change will do the trick
And it’s time for a change,
Do we really stop to think
And have a frank exchange?

For “change, for change’s sake” can mean
That, as our rooms have faded,
When we change the wallpaper,
The furniture looks jaded.

And if we change too many things
In way, or shape, or form
Then constant need to change occurs
And change becomes the norm.

And change becomes our mentor
As change succeeds each change
And every changeless constant
That stays unchanged seems strange.

And so, if you’re sore tempted
To spawn unneeded change,
Just change your mind and see that you
Don’t change it, for a change

So I've decided to CHALLENGE myself....(Yikes!)
I am an EXCELLENT planner. I can sit down with my phone and enter so many detailed plans in my notes it makes no damn sense but being an excellent planner means NOTHING when you're also a PHENOMENAL PROCRASTINATOR as well....#DontJudgeMe So as much as I "plan" to get things done, my procrastination always diminishes the plans! The bottom line is I NEED to teach myself to follow through with my plans. Last year March I made a plan to work out 5 days a week for 12 weeks. Surprisingly I FOLLOWED through!!!! And when I tell you the results were immaculent thats exactly what they were....But afterwards instead of continuing with my workout plan and reaching me goal weight I completely fell off the map!!! (Womp Womp Womp) So with that being said today I decided to get up off my butt and get back on the ball....But this time I'm going to up the ante to 24 weeks. Just saying it is GREAT and I hear myself BUT I CAN'T JUST HEAR IT, I HAVE TO ALSO DO IT! And thats the hard part....But it doesn't have to be! My method to STAYING FOCUSED is consistently reminding myself that this is something that NEEDS to be done! This is MY life. I've decided on the way I want to live it. I want to be happy. One of the things can make me happy is being healthy so I can live long enough to enjoy my happiness. This will NOT be easy, at some points it will not be fun, but I cannot be weak....ONLY THE STRONG AND DETERMINED SURVIVE!!!! I cant front I'M NOT READY but this will NEVER happen if I wait until the time that I am. ITS NOW OR NEVER.....Pray for me!
August 7th-January 22nd.
24 weeks, 5days a week, 2 hours a day....
*When They See The New Dijah Watch The Dope Boys Go Crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*

Well the juicing process is back in full swing and today started day 1 of my 24 weeks of getting this ish RIGHT!!!!!!! 24 weeks in the gym for ME is a long time BUT I'm ready. I've procrastinated long enough and I'm ready to open up a new chapter of my life and an 80lbs weight loss is only step 1...I ALWAYS want to be PLUS SIZED.....That defines me and differentiates me at the same time. But I want to be healthy and to get there I HAVE WORK TO DO!!!!!!!!!

GOOD MORNING MY LOVES.... I just wanted to share my thoughts with you. Alot of people's pain is self inflicted! Even if you don't love yourself enough trust God enough to believe you deserve to be HAPPY! I learned early on that it is IMPOSSIBLE for ME to live in misery. Reason being, I have the type of personality that when I'm not my happy, go lucky, upbeat self...I'm MISERABLE!!!! And when people sense that spirit they avoid me like the plague. The reason people want to be around me is due to that fun, contagious, honest spirit! I CAN'T let fear, people, relationships, jobs or anything else on God's green planet beat me down and ruin my spirit....Because sooner or later it could ruin my life!!!! When I didnt like my living situation, I moved. When I didnt like my job, I resigned. When I was sick of being mistreated in a relationship, I moved on! Not all of these things were done because I just love myself so much BUT because I trust that GOD LOVES ME SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH that whatever I let go of he'll bring me something better! HE ALWAYS HAS....You dont have to take my word, look back on your own life and see how many times you wanted something and God didnt give it to you BUT in the end you got something way BETTER! GOD LOVES YOU...And the moment you start trusting him is the moment your life will begin to change for the better! *GODS GOT MY BACK*

Beyonce & Jay-Z - Bow Down + Tom Ford. Barclays Center 05/08

THE DYNAMIC DUO KILLED FOR KING BEY'S LAST NIGHT IN BROOKLYNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!

I'm PROUD of me Just sitting back thinking how UNLUCKY I've been in love. It wouldn't be so SAD if I hadn't been so loving, giving, forgiving, open-minded, patient, honest, and loyal. After everything I did for all of the men I've dealt with I barely got so much as a thank you! I don't get any gifts on holidays, treated special on my birthday, not even an offer to do something for and with me after all the wonderful and compassionate things I've done! But you know what??? I've NEVER had a pity party, complained, lost my cool, or brought up any of the many things that I've done for them...Including BE THERE when the rest of the world had turned their back! You know why? Because I am 100% SURE (and I don't care if I have to go to my grave believing this) that God has my Prince Charming perfectly designed for ME!!! And he's not sitting around waiting but having his own experiences as well so when we do finally find each other we'll know for sure why all of the others didn't work out!!!! I don't mind waiting only because i know in my heart IT WILL HAPPEN but it's nights like this where I almost get tired. I'm not ashamed of that, I'm HUMAN! I CAN'T name one human being who WANTS to be alone but I can tell you I WILL GLADLY TAKE THAT RISK BEFORE I DECIDE TO BE WITH SOMEONE AND BE UNHAPPY!!!! In the meantime I'm PRAYERFUL...And not for LOVE but for the strength to wait for it, the courage to accept it, the patience to endure it, and the hard work and Gods blessings to sustain it...

So.....I am a HUGE K-Shine fan! I think he is a super TALENTED battle rapper BUT clearly he was off his game in this battle. Trust me its constructive critism. Sometimes that day aint your day. His fans understand. What I will say is Big T didnt come to play either. He did okay in my opinion BUT had PROFESSOR SHINE showed up sh*t would've been crayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! K recycled alot of his old material and its obvious for this battle he wasn't prepared. Its okay your fans forgive you. Word on the street is Arsenal is up next....Please show up with Professor Shine ready to show these n*ggas how to do this son!!!!!!

Don't think of her as gone away -
her journey's just begun,
life holds so many facets -
this earth is only one.

Just think of her as resting
from the sorrows and the tears
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.

Think how she must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.

And think of her as living
in the hearts of those she touched ...
for nothing loved is ever lost -
and she was loved so much.

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy guys!!!!!!!!!! I know I've been M.I.A. for a few days but I've had a death in the family. We lost one of our Beautiful Angels last Wednesday and buried her Friday. Its NEVER easy losing someone you love and care about BUT joy cometh in the morning!!!! With time, love, patience, and support God will bring the family to a place of peace...... RIP Cousin Susan.....Gone but most certainly NOT forgotten!

ALL HAIL THE KINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!! Saturday August 3rd at exactly 9pm I witnessed greatness at its finest!!!! Traffic was backed up from Dowtown Brooklyn all the way across the bridge into Manhattan. BEYONCE HAD LITERALLY SHUT THE CITY DOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!! Numerous wardrobe changes, nonstop dance routines, and a booming voice that literally shook up the Barclays center made it a night to remember! I must admit I was NOT very happy about my seating arrangements (basically TicketsNow got me!!!!). The show was still energetic, fun-filled, emotional, and entertaining! She belted out Whitney Houston's anthem "I Will Always Love You", she serenaded the crowd with One Plus One and while she sung make love to me she damn near made love to the piano! She ran "Love On Top" back twice and every fan in that stadium sung their heart out!!!!! By the time Beyonce got up to Halo I was already crying and singing along! The Mrs. Carter Show gets 10's across the board and 2 thumbs up!!!! KING BEY I SALUTE YOU.....

Its been a longggggggggggggggggg time coming but I'M BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!! Somewhere along the line I lost my creative vision for my craft. I forgot what my purpose of doing a BLOG was in the first place. I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL mind and the best way for me to express that is through writing. These eyes aint BIG for nothing....I'm very observant and I pay close attention to people and their behaviors. So when people think they're fooling me with their words, I'm watching their actions and making my assessments. Most people are not built for REAL TALK, I have my PH.D in REAL TALK! With other people and with myself....Right now in my life I'm on a weight loss journey, a career change, and a spiritual quest that is going to change my life. I'm so EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! I wanna share my accomplishments, failures, goals, thoughts, and love with my readers....I hope you guys are ready to take this journey with me.....WELCOME BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!