I get so many e-mails, texts, phone calls, inboxes, DM's and have so many face to face conversations with women who tell me "because of you I am INSPIRED!" That melts my heart to know I can be the inspiration behind another woman changing her life for the better especially when God has given me so many inspirational, influential women in my life to do the same for me. I am ELATED about Operation "Heal 100 Hearts" only because God healed mine first. All of the things that people assumed or knew about me WAS TRUE! I was an instigating, manipulative, angry, spiteful, sneaky, harsh woman. I was only all of those things because I WAS a woman in pain. But the worst kind because I was EXCELLENT at hiding it and recognizing everyone else's. NO ONE WANTS TO SHOW THEIR SCARS!!!! I understand that. I also respect it. But for me I know hiding my scars meant a lot of tearful, sleepless nights. It didn't matter that nobody else knew I was hurting that didn't ease the pain not one bit. Until one day I got TIRED of crying, tired of hurting and tired of living in misery. But who could I trust to show my scars? NOBODY! No matter how "close" you are to a person or how much they love you it's human nature for people to judge, I just learned to be okay with that. You know why???? BECAUSE EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD HAS SCARS!!!! No two peoples scars are identical BUT we're all still scarred nonetheless. Once I became okay with that I began to share. I shared things I told God I would take to my grave and to my surprise I attracted women who shared some of the same feelings and experiences. Some of them even had a remedy for the pain. And the more I shared my pain, the more I learned from it and the more I learned the easier it became to LET IT GO!!!! I'm NOT that b*tch I once was because I no longer hide my scars. I no longer hide my scars because I'm not ashamed of them. I know people see my IG/FB/YouTube and judge me harshly, that doesn't bother me. Maybe some of the things I say and do they would NEVER but there is some things that they've said and done that although they haven't shared it with the world doesn't change the fact that they've done it. I'm aware NOT everybody is like me. Whether their heart is healed or not some women may NEVER feel comfortable enough with "sharing" their personal experiences with the world, that's cool. As long as those experiences are not what's keeping you up crying late at night than I respect their privacy and their journey. Me, personally I'm so THANKFUL that God has healed my heart that I want to go around sharing that remedy with the world!!!! Believe it or not I'm a better person because of it. All glory be to God for the journey, vision, and love to fulfill my dreams. *We ALL Need Somebody To Lean On*