Not too long ago I posted something on FaceBook about me and my Mothers Weight Watchers journey. Underneath the status she wrote "What I tell you about putting my business on FaceBook?" Meanwhile what I put was nothing revealing or negative it was just HER business and she DIDN'T want it shared. I RESPECT THAT BUT....#FactsAboutKhadijah I AM VERY TRANSPARENT! I share a lot of myself. One of my favorite quotes is "I have no secrets because I have no shame" Not only have I been through some things in my life BUT I've done some things in my life that the average person would stop and look at me like I am CRAZY! A lot, no let me rephrase that ALL of those things were done when I was HURTING. Spiritually I was in so much pain I could not think straight. Hurt and pain will cause you to do some CRAZY things. Is that justification for my behavior? NO. I don't need any. But the only response I ALWAYS give when asked is "that behavior" WAS APART OF MY JOURNEY. Had I not gone through that painful phase I could not be where I am today. Had I not had those experiences I would not be who I am today. Had I not survived them I could not share this with anyone today in the hope that they won't follow the same path. I get a lot of phone calls, e-mails and text messages in regards to Operation "Heal 100 Hearts" One of the first things people say to me is that "they don't want anyone knowing their business" and believe it or not that's why so many other people have yet to reach out to me. People don't want the world knowing their secrets because their STILL ashamed of them. I GET THAT. But let me tell you what you don't get. YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY YOUR HURTING FOR OTHERS TO SEE YOUR PAIN. Pain is transparent as well. No matter how you try to hide or camouflage it, it shows! In your behaviors, your words, your fears, your actions and your body language. The things you obsess over, the things you run from, the things you post, the way you allow yourself to be treated is ALL a reflection of you and most of us are hurting. Not only are we hurting but we're ashamed and embarrassed to let anyone know. NOT ME. That pain had its hand so tight around my neck it damn near killed me. I'm too talented, loving, understanding and worthy to allow that to happen. So I opened up and with the help of God, people, opportunities and love my heart has been healed. God blessed me with the spirit of discernment and I'm using my gift for good. Praying that is impacts peoples lives the way it did mine. I can't and I won't share peoples journey, its NOT my place. But when I can do is assist them in getting to a point where they're NOT ashamed to share it themselves. The journey makes us who we are! Come be apart of HERstory..... *WE ALL NEED SOMEBODY TO LEAN ON*

Up early self assessing....It's July which represents we're halfway through the year. I set some goals in the beginning of the year that I'll be damned if I don't see them through. SCHOOL is DEFINITELY on my list of "to do's" I think I finished last semester very good, I enjoyed it and the experience was very much needed. I just need to improve my study habits and work on my time management. WORK...There has to be some improvements made in this area as well. I NEED to become more organized, more focused and more consistent. This is how I get my bread and butter and this is what I love to do, I can't let anything jeopardize that. WORKING OUT/GYM Everything about this is MENTAL and I KNOW that! My body CAN handle it it's just about wrapping my mind around the concept that NO it's not always going to be comfortable, YES I will be pushed beyond my limits and it will NOT happen overnight but if I keep at it...IT WILL HAPPEN! EATING CLEAN from what I hear is 80% of the battle! If I don't change that than I'm setting myself up for a losing battle. The problem is I'm a "Creature Of Habit" so I like to stick with what I know! But I have to keep reminding myself that I'm trying to divorce what I know/my old reality and create and entirely new one. RESPONSIBILITIES....I am 32 and a half years old. I am NOT a baby anymore! THIS IS MY LIFE....I KNOW exactly what I WANT it's just a matter of working towards achieving those goals. As an adult BILLS NEED TO BE PAID ON TIME, MONEY NEEDS TO BE MANAGED PROPERLY (keyword: properly NOT perfectly) and THINGS NEED TO BE DONE IN ORDER OF PRIORITY NOT LUXURY!!!!! In order for me to work on any of these things I have to pray over them. I speak to God on an hourly basis. He's aware of my fears, struggles and wants. He places things in my hands and in my heart for me to strive for, I just have to work on the fear of not just wanting but having all that God has in store for me. But like the old saying says....Knowing is just half the battle and from all of the things I just shared, I'm well aware!