WELL, WELL, WELL............Its been a loooonnnnnnnggggggggggg time coming! Been on a hiatus for a little minute. I had to regroup, put some things into perspective, and GET FOCUSED!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes we all must take a step back from the limelight and just observe the crowd. Everyday I'm learning what it means to be a WOMAN and how important my role is in the peoples lives around me....I AM LOVED...And that is the most overwhelming feeling in the world. It gives me such JOY to be received the way I am by my peers. I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT THAT FEELING.... Thank you God for the experience.........

I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning..to the end. He noted that first came her date of birth And spoke the following date with tears, 1964-1994 But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years. For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth.. And now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own; The cars..the house..the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard. Are there things you”d like to change? For you never know how much time is left, That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what’’s true and real, And always try to understand The way other people feel. And be less quick to anger, And show appreciation more And love the people in our lives Like we”ve never loved before. If we treat each other with respect, And more often wear a smile.. Remembering that this special dash Might only last a little while. So, when your eulogy’’s being read With your life’’s actions to rehash.. Would you be proud of the things they say About how you spent your dash? I LOVE THIS POEM!!!! Not to mention it is 100% ACCURATE for this man....Jocko was the epitome of a father, friend, leader, and mentor. His legace will live on FOREVER in the hearts of thousands because he touched so many!!!!!!!!! Always kind and helpful, humble and gentle, understanding and positive are just a few things to name this mans character. As a Brownsville resident I thank you from the bottom of my heart for not only what you did for the Plaza but for Brownsville as a whole! You touched so many lives, you helped so many people, and you saved so many lives....Thats how you spent your dash! And you can rest peacefully knowing that we ALL appreciate and love you.

Now you'll KNOW I'm a REAL TALK GIVER ALL DAY!!!! Including to myself.....I watched the first Oprah's LifeClass and Iyanla Vanzant said a statement that stuck with me..., STATE THE FACTS AND TELL THE TRUTH!!! That's the REALEST sh*t I've heard in my life!!!!!! So me being me I had to find a situation to use it for to make sure it works....I used the situation I was having with my EX Pumpkin.....HE KEEPS SAYING HE LOVES ME! I'm not too sure of that so I did exactly what Iyanla Vanzant said....I stated the FACTS.....He hasn't taken me anywhere, hasn't done anything special with or for me (unless I initiated it) and he hasn't introduced me to anyone SPECIAL in his life as somebody special in his life......Now I have to tell the TRUTH....KHADIJAH THAT BOY DOES NOT LOVE YOU!!!!! He might enjoy f*cking you and all the other benefits that come with dealing with you but he does NOT love you and the facts blatanly support that! Although it was a HARD pill to swallow, its REAL and I respect it! Why don't you guys try it with me........STATE YOUR FACTS AND THEN TELL YOUR TRUTH ABOUT A SITUATION YOU'RE STRUGGLING WITH IN YOUR LIFE....I guarantee you not only is it THERAPEUTIC but very much NEEDED!

#DontJudgeMe I THINK I'M FINALLY STARTING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT ALMOST EVERYBODY ELSE IN THE WORLD ALREADY KNEW.....When you really want something, you CANT sit on your hands, with your eyes closed, repeating it over and over again! U HAVE TO GET YOUR A** UP, PUT SOME MUSCLE IN YOUR HUSTLE, ADD HARDWORK, CONSISTENCY, & DEDICATION, AND TAKE DAT SH*T!!!! For the last 29yrs I've been "hoping, wishing, and praying" for things to come to me INSTEAD of getting my a** up and going to get them! Well guess what???? Somebody put me on to the way the game is played and AINT NO STOPPING ME NOW!!!!! *RUN WITH ME OR RUN FROM ME* #ItsJustThatSimple

.....I FEEL GOOD. Today I did what I PROMISED myself I would and I PUSHED myself beyond my limits. For the last 29yrs I've lived in FEAR! Fear that becoming GREAT would be too much for me.....Why????? When thats exactly what GOD wants me to be? Nothing that has occurred in my life happened by accident. All of the LOVE, PAIN, FEAR, HEARTACHE, DEATH, LOSS, FIGHTS, DISAPPOINTMENTS, AND TEARS HAVE PLACED ME WHERE I AM TODAY AND I AM DAMN PROUD!!!!!!!!! I remember somebody telling me they couldn't be who they are had it not been for me and the things I've said and done to and with them. Those moments are what I live for!!!!!!!!! When I leave this Earth and people get the opportunity to speak about me, I want them to say I BROUGHT THE BEST OUT IN THEM....Everyday I strive to bring the BEST out in myself. I AM NOT PERFECT...I detach when I've been hurt.....I'm clingy when I LOVE.....I'm EMOTIONAL and because of that I keep my guards up! Atleast once a week I NEED to let out a GOOD cry, I've grown dependent on my weave....And a host of other ish I could name BUT the bottom line is I've ACCEPTED who I am and the parts that I haven't, I'm working on changing! *I LOVE ME*

HEY GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know its been a while BUT SHE'S BAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Took a little time off to regroup, re-evaluate, and redefine my life. This year has been a BUMPY ride. More downs than ups I must admit BUT I WONT dwell on that so I'm gonna call those downs "experiences." So for the last 4 1/2 months I've had some very DIFFICULT "experiences!" BUT as always GOD brought me to it, then brought me through it and because of that I am truly GRATEFUL! For the last 30yrs of my life all I've done is COMPLAIN, and see the glass as half empty as opposed to half full. I had NO faith! I begged and pleaded with God when things were at its worst and forgot to thank him for all that he has done even when I wasn't at my best! WELL NO MORE OF THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD MADE ME SPECIAL....He blessed me with certain characteristics because he wants me to use them and my influence to impact the world in a POSITIVE way. I HAVE CHANGED. I remember there was a time when I had to have control over ALL situations around me, people had to see things my way, and I had to always be RIGHT! Living my life in that fashion brought me ALOT of heartache. I DONT HAVE CONTROL OVER ANY SITUATION, God does. NOBODY HAS TO SEE THINGS MY WAY, only Gods way. Not everything I say and do is RIGHT, I AM NOT GOD!!!! And how arrogant of me to believe so! But thats where GROWTH comes into play. THANK YOU JESUS FOR THE ABILITY TO SEE THAT THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME BUT ABOUT TAKING THE JOURNEY THAT YOU HAVE SET FORTH FOR ME AND TRUSTING YOU TO MAKE IT ALL WORTH WHILE. I am NOT perfect and I know I will make plenty more mistakes in this lifetime BUT I ask God that you walk with me, guide me, love me, and teach me how to be the woman YOU want me to be. God please remove any anger, malice, revenge, frustration, and venom from my heart. Give me the STRENGTH to pray for my enemies and trust that you will fight that battle for me as opposed to me trying to control the situation and fight it for myself. Thank you Jesus for the spirit of EXPOSURE! Thank you for exposing people's true character and allowing me to see who and whats best for me. Also, thank you for giving me the strength to leave those people in my past and move on to a promising and fulfilling future. Last but not least let me take the time out to thank GOD for everyone he's placed in my life past, present, and future. I ALWAYS take a lesson with me after EVERY encounter and experience I have and because of those people I have learned so much about the girl I was and the woman I'm meant to be. I'm in transition. Its NOT easy but God has reassured me that ITS WORTH IT! So with that being said from this point on its ONWARD & UPWARD.... *I KNOW I WAS BORN TO BE GREAT*

KILLED ANOTHER ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BODIED THIS..........

DIGGIN JOJO .....

I've ALWAYS had the mindset of "I AM GREAT TOO" as opposed to "I AM BETTER THAN YOU!" Only because I was raised to believe in my heart whatever God's plan is for me is custom made for ME!!! I NEVER had to compete with people to shine, because when you're a TRUE STAR EVERYONE around you can not only see it but they can feel it....AND TRUST ME WHEN I TELL YOU ITS A WONDERFUL FEELING!!!!

THIS TRACK IS HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!

THROWBACK THURSDAY..........THE GOOD OLD DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS STILL ONE OF THE GREATEST HIP HOP TRACKS OF ALL TIME! They HAD to MURDER Tupac because he was too BOLD, BEAUTIFUL, & BLACK! Its so HARD to hear a story like Trayvon's.....I have brothers, cousins, uncles, nephews and friends that I'm praying for. I'm a Brownsville native and I know in my community alone we lose a massive amount of young men to gun violence EVERYDAY! What are we supposed to do? Who are we supposed to turn to? My heart BLEEDS for Trayvon but it more so hurts for my peers who are losing family members EVERYDAY to someone of the same race. One of "us!" Of course its a different reaction when its done by someone of another race BUT does it make it any less painful when its done by someone of the same skin color???????? Either way I view it its still COLD-BLOODED, HEARTLESS, MURDER!!!!!!!!!!! And truth be told, I'M SICK OF IT! Its a shame to feel like a prisoner in your own community. Its sad to hear two housing complexes in the same neighborhood, across the street from each other are KILLING one another everyday!!!!!!!!! Its a shame that they place these rookies in our community with the "shoot first, ask questions later" mentality and we have to accept that. What do we need the other races for? We're doing an excellent job at killing each other our damn selves. So while I applaud everybody for rocking their hoodies for Trayvon I pray you ALL do the same for your neighbors, co-workers, and friends family members who you know personally that are dying EVERYDAY! So while I pray for Trayvon I'm also gonna pray for Carlito, Lance, Duney, Lamont, Dre, D.J., Manny, Stout, Occ, Scoody, Harlem, and anybody else who WE have loss due to the acts of irresponsible people and gun violence.....BO$$Y IS FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF THERE WAS EVER A TIME WE NEEDED COCHRAN, THIS IS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #JusticeForTrayvon

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....Home sweet home! I ENJOYED my day tremendously. I had a very PRODUCTIVE day at work and afterwards Miss T. Lee and I went to take our placement exams for The College Of New Rochelle....I'M EXCITED!!!! Too much precious, idle, non-refundable time spent on B.S.!!!! I've ALWAYS been brilliant so I dont think I'll have an issue its just about me being persistent and focused! But the one thing I'm learning more than ever is to be PATIENT! EVERYTHING IN GODS TIME....In the past, I say or think something and I expect it to happen like yesterday. Thats NOT the way life or God works. I thank him for what I have and TRUST him for what I need. Not to mention a BIG shout out to ALL of the women I've surrounded myself with who CONTINUOUSLY inspire me to push for my dreams! I LOVE YOU LADIES AND I CANT THANK YOU ENOUGH..... So take a GOOD look @ these faces ladies & gents because the next time you see them they will be draped in cap & gown and proud recipients of Master Degrees!!!!!!!! #LETSWORK

STILL LOVE MISS E!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS SO MANY SEXY A** BLACK MEN IN THIS VIDEO IT SHOULD BE CONSIDERED SOFT PORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A while back my Mom (as always) gave me some very VALUABLE advice.....(In my Miss Pennie voice) "Khadijah you are an incredibly SMART girl. Sometimes too smart for your own effin good! I applaud you for that and when it comes down to FACTS NOBODY on God's green earth can argue with you, BUT your "point of view" and your "logic" is not considered FACTS! They're considered exactly what I just said YOUR "point of view" and YOUR "logic" Just because people DONT view, understand, decipher, or process things the way you do does NOT make them WRONG it just makes THEIR point of view and logic DIFFERENT from yours! And might I add its very ARROGANT of you to think so!!!!!" -_____- Who the hell does Miss Pennie think she is to tell me MY point of view and logical way of seeing things is NOT right????????? Like hell it aint!!!!!!!!!!! Atleast at the time thats what I was thinking! But now looking back on it in hindsight as usual Miss Pennie was 100% RIGHT!!!! EVERYBODY has had DIFFERENT experiences in life, their experiences shape the people they are. You only know what you've been taught and exposed to. My parents (RIP PAPA BEAR) showed me LOVE, TRUST, UNDERSTANDING, RESPECT, HONESTY, & COMPASSION....Were they perfect? No....Am I??? Not at all! But they did their damn best and thats EXACTLY what I'm doing.....I'm learning to RESPECT other people's opinion as I realize they are entitled to them. I AM NOT ALWAYS RIGHT! Not only have I said it but I actually BELIEVE it..... SO TODAY I'M TOASTING TO GROWTH!!!!!!!!!!! Everyday I'm afforded the opportunity to grow not only as a daughter, sister, Aunt, Godmom, niece, employee, but most importantly as a WOMAN! I'm THANKFUL for that! If I CANT grow, I CANT live.....

"Blanca" Gathered Sleeve Faux Wrap Dress - Red - New Arrivals - Monif C

"Blanca" Gathered Sleeve Faux Wrap Dress - Red - New Arrivals - Monif C

MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY SUMMER ANTHEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jeffrey Campbell boots

I NEED THESE ASAP......

KELLY GOT ME WANTING TO HIT THE GYM TWICE A DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #TeamBrownskin&Poppin

Goodmorning.....Today I woke up feeling GOOD. My commute went well. But I noticed once I stepped into my job I felt DIFFERENT. This used to be a place that I looked forward to coming to. These used to be people that I considered FAMILY...Lately its starting to just feel like "WORK!" I HATE THAT FEELING!!!!! Dont get me wrong, I LOVE MY STUDENTS!!! Even the ones that get on my last nerves. I ADORE THEM. They've taught me so much about myself and they also have had a MAJOR impact on my life....They're preparing me for parenthood. I cant front NOW I'm anxious to be a Mom. PS I'm so NOT knocked up! #TeamSingle so dont you'll start wondering....But anywho, I digress....I have to see what I'm going to do to remove this cloud thats hovering over my second home or maybe I should assess if THE CLOUD IS JUST HOVERING OVER ME! Whichever the case may be I've ALWAYS been excellent at making the best out of bad situations.....Soooooooooooooooooooo with that being said I'm strapping on my boots, sucking up my worries, and leaving the bullsh*t in the past......#LetsGetIt

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.... UNCONDITIONAL UNDERSTANDING.... YOUR LOVE HAS CHANGED MY LOVE.... I LOVE YOU MOMMY.........#UNBREAKABLE

NEW USHER......FIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

First things first I BO$$Y freaks ALL da hunni's!!!! RIP B.I.G.

MAKE KONY FAMOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Responsibility to yourself means that you don't fall for shallow and easy solutions--predigested books and ideas...marrying early as an escape from real decisions, getting pregnant as an evasion of already existing problems. It means that you refuse to sell your talents and aspirations short...and this, in turn, means resisting the forces in society which say that women should be nice, play safe, have low professional expectations, drown in love and forget about work, live through others, and stay in the places assigned to us. It means that we insist on a life of meaningful work, insist that work be as meaningful as love and friendship in our lives. It means, therefore, the courage to be "different"...The difference between a life lived actively, and a life of passive drifting and dispersal of energies, is an immense difference. Once we begin to feel committed to our lives, responsible to ourselves, we can never again be satisfied with the old, passive way." — Adrienne Rich

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So.....Last night I watched Basketball Wives (of course)....Everything that Tami said to her therapist is EVERYTHING I already assumed! I've been trying to tell you'll but NOBODY has been listening to me. PEOPLE HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOME SH*T!!!! There is a method to the madness. People aren't just walking around ANGRY for no reason. People have traumatic experiences that they have yet to not only address but deal with as well. EVERYBODY responds to their issues differently. Some people take things on the chin and keep it pushing, LUCKY THEM! Others deal with things at the time that they occur, SMART THEM! Then we have those that DON'T know how to deal and haven't dealt. LETS PRAY FOR THEM! WE ALL NEED SOMEBODY TO LEAN ON!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your lips, your eyes, your soul Are like a work of art, The most creative thing of all Is your beautiful heart. If you were a painting, No colors could express The beauty deep inside you, A rainbow, nothing less. If you were a sculpture The clay could hardly make Your figure of an angel Without one mistake. If you were a euphony No choir could really sing All the beautiful music Your eyes could possibly bring. So here I am, an artist, With inspiration beyond belief But to capture such rare beauty, I'd have to be a thief.

As a woman I'm learning my LIMITS....I'm learning that no matter how much you "LOVE" a person you dont have to let them continuously lie, betray, and mistreat you. ESPECIALLY if they claim to "love" you back. I'm having Separation Anxiety. I have individuals that I NEED to separate from but, I'm having a HARD time doing so. My separation is for the BEST. We're growing in different directions, we no longer see eye to eye....The gloves is off, the blood is drawn, we no longer wear the same uniform! I'm NOT okay with that. But the exposure was NEEDED..... I've reached a point in my life where I can accept SEPARATION....Thats sounds so odd coming from a person who NEEDS people! But I guess the saying is right....I ONLY NEED PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO NEED ME IN THEIRS....And some of those motherf*ckers I DONT EVEN NEED. GOD has not yet made any mistakes in my life. He has guided me down a PERFECT path set forth for me. As for as leaving people behind....IT HAPPENS, THATS LIFE! My only obligation is to pray for them and wish them well. That I can and will do........ Onward & Upward

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye. ~ H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

I'D RATHER LIVE AS A SOLDIER THAN DIE AS A COWARD!!!!!!!!!!!

My anticipation to break into the Mental Health field is growing more and more EVERYDAY.....I realize that A LOT of people (myself included) NEED help....I'm glad I can be the first to admit it. Looking back on my life there has been things that have stunted my growth as a woman but also some things have HELPED ME TO GROW! I'm EXCELLENT @ making assessments, apologizing when I'm wrong, aggreeing to disagree, and keeping an open mind. But as I'm working towards becoming a BETTER me, I'm watching others around me unravel rapidly.....And its not even the unraveling that I'm concerned about but more so the UNAWARENESS!!! But hey what can u do? You can keep them in prayer and keep on keeping on, THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I INTEND ON DOING.....

Me: God can I ask u a question? God: Sure Me: Promise u won't get mad God: I promise Me: Why did u let so much stuff happen to me today? ... ... ... ... God: What do u mean? Me: Well, I woke up late, God: Yes Me: My car took forever to start, God: Okay Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait, God:Huummmm... Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call..... God: All right Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did you do that? God: Let me see, the Death Angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of the other angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that. Me (humbled): OH GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road. Me (ashamed)......... God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work. Me (embarrasses):Ok God: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered. Me (softly): I see God God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark. Me: I'm sorry God God: Don't be sorry, just learn to trust me.....in all things, the good & the bad. Me: I will trust you God: And don't doubt that my plan for your day is always better than your plan. Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, thank you for everything today. God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I love looking after my children......

There is absolutely, positively, NOTHING more important than FAMILY....I come from a very loving, strong, inspirational, helpful, understanding, educated group of people. THEY LOVE ME!!!! When everything is going wrong and I feel I have no one to turn to, it is them that keep me grounded. THERE IS NO GREATER FEELING THAN LOVE....I CANT LIVE WITHOUT IT! I am so BLESSED to have it. I have had encounters and experiences that have influenced me in a way that I cant describe. I appreciate those people and those experiences! GOD is working through, for, and with me. If he is with me to hell with anyone thats against me! Thank u Jesus for my FAMILY and the people that truly LOVE me....I AM NOTHING WITHOUT THEM.....

The ship of my life may or may not be sailing on calm and amiable seas. The challenging days of my existence may or may not be bright and promising. Stormy or sunny days, glorious or lonely nights, I maintain an attitude of gratitude. If I insist on being pessimistic, there is always tomorrow. TODAY I AM BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!

If you are holding on to something that doesnt belong to you....LET IT GO! If you are holding on to past hurts & pains...LET IT GO! If someone CANT treat you right, love you back, and see your worth....LET IT GO! If someone has angered you....LET IT GO! If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil & revenge....LET IT GO! If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction....LET IT GO! If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents....LET IT GO! If you have a bad attitude....LET IT GO! If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better....LET IT GO! If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in him....LET IT GO! If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...LET IT GO! If you keep trying to help someone who wont even try to help themselves....LET IT GO! If you're feeling depressed and stressed....LET IT GO! If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying take your hands OFF of it,' then you need to....LET IT GO!!!! THE BATTLE IS THE LORDS......

When things go wrong as they sometimes will; When the road you're trudging seems all uphill; When the funds are low, and the debts are high; And you want to smile, but you have to sigh; When care is pressing you down a bit Rest if you must, but don't you quit. Success is failure turned inside out; The silver tint of the clouds of doubt; And you can never tell how close you are; It may be near when it seems afar. So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit...

Here at work on this rainy day listening to the soothing sounds of Ms. Houston......Such a TRAGEDY to lose someone so TALENTED, BEAUTIFUL, and LOVED so soon!!!! This woman's voice DEFINITELY broke the mold....I grew up on her music and movies. I have an old DVR Cable box and EVERYBODY has been trying to convince me to upgrade, I refuse!!!! My only reason for not wanting to do so is because I have 2009's American Music Awards when they honored Whitney as the International Artist Of The Year.
As a person who ADORES this woman, this performance resignated something in me. This award was PROOF that there is a Silver Lining in EVERY cloud. That TALENT regardless to what its accompanied by still stands alone. WHITNEY HAD OFFICIALLY COME BACK!!!!!! That "come back" gave women such as myself HOPE. It represented RESILIENCY....It was the PERFECT way of saying.....I'VE BEEN THRU SOME THINGS, BUT WITH GOD'S LOVE I MADE IT THRU......
God bless you Ms. Houston, I pray that God provides your family with COMFORT in their time of bereavement. You were most definitely an Angel, your voice lifted so many spirits, and I pray your legacy continues to live on.....RIP WHITNEY HOUSTON, GONE BUT MOST CERTAINLY NEVER FORGOTTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RANDOM THOUGHTS.......
God makes a way out of no way so with that being said I'm KEEPING my positive state of mind even when things don't seem like they're going very well. Whats the saying???? "FAITH IS TAKING THE FIRST STEP EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T SEE THE WHOLE STAIRCASE!"
I have FAITH that God LOVES me and wants the BEST for me....I just HATE not knowing what the "best" is....Some people are FASCINATED by not knowing what God has in store for them....For me its a lil scary....Who am I kidding????? ITS ALOT SCARY!!!!!!!!!!! BUT......We all have to make decisions for our lives as best WE sit fit. What decisions do I NEED to make today??????????

So my 'Dirty 30' B'Day weekend has officially come to a close.....In all honesty I can say I'M THANKFUL!!!! I spent the last 30 years of my life WORRYING....I HATE THAT FEELING!!!! I'm learning to realize that I have absolutely NO control over what is going to happen to me in my life. I can only CONTRIBUTE to what direction I want my life to go in....I have concluded that after all is said and done....I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!! The equivalent of happiness for me is LOVE....REAL LOVE!!!! From family, friends, co-workers, relationships, and any other encounters I have in life. But the only problem I seem to have is LOVE is displayed differently from different people. I HATE THE WAY SOME PEOPLE LOVE!!!! BUT I have to respect it....Just as well as I have my way of expressing my love, other people have theirs. So with that being said its very HARD to distinguish who's way of loving I want to ACCEPT.
I'm having trouble figuring out which bridges to burn and which to cross....
But I also know that GOD will provide GUIDANCE and that is most certainly what I NEED. I just have to pay close attention to the signs. I have to stop denying whats being revealed right in my face. Its just that regardless to how obvious it is, and how beneficial it may be....It still doesn't change the fact that sometimes..........THE TRUTH HURTS!!!!!!!!!

If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and become more, you are a leader.

John Quincy Adams

While I know myself as a creation of God, I am also obligated to realize and remember that everyone else and everything else are also God's creation.......

HAPPY B'DAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 30YRS OLD TODAY....UNBELIEVABLE......GOD HAS TRUELY BLESSED ME AND FOR THAT I AM TRUELY THANKFUL..........

MOTHER TO SON
BY: Langston Hughes

Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair

AT TH END OF THE DAY............

EVERYDAY I FIND SOMETHING OR SOMEONE TO MOTIVATE ME..........

A keen sense of humor helps us overlook the unbecoming, understand the unconventional, tolerate the unpleasant, overcome the unexpected and outlast the unbearable....

A CHANGE MUST COME!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY 57TH G'DAY IN HEAVEN PAPA BEAR.....*I CAN SEE YOUR HALO*

I FEEL SO GOOD THIS MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD HAS PLACED SO MANY WONDERFUL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE!!!!! I'M THANKFUL....

I LOVE A GOOD LAUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I N S P I R A T I O N.....

I FEEL LIKE SHARING TODAY..... I remember when I kept a Diary and ALL of my feelings, emotions, goals, plans, decisions, hopes, dreams, and anything else I could think of was documented. Looking back at that time I KNOW why I did that. For the very same reason that I still do it today on FaceBook and in my Blackberry, because for some strange reason I believe that someday somebody will actually want to tell my story. That someday somebody will realize how GREAT I am...That someday somebody will realize that everything I'm doing is NOT in vain....Someday somebody will see that I've made a difference...But as time is quickly passing me by I'm starting to feel like I'm the only one who believes that.....

OR I'M MY OWN WORST ENEMY BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY PERSON WHO DOESN'T....

I NEED THIS TYPE OF LOVE..... Love ignites more fires than hate can extinguish,where there's Love in abundance there will always be miracles,I Love You. If You didn't exist I would've dreamed You into Being....

SO FREE.....

Love is a friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad. It settles for less than perfection, and makes allowances for human weakness. Love is content with the present. It hopes for the future and it doesn't brood over the past. It's the day-in and day-out chronicle of irritations, problems compromises, small disappointments, big victories, and working toward common goals. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you lack. Love Conquers All

I AM TRULY INSPIRED....

I LOVE TO DO THINGS TO MAKE PEOPLE SMILE.... I smile easily, knowing that of all the things I wear, a smile and good humor are the most important. Life’s most prized possession is a pleasant disposition....

I LOVE THIS TRACK SO MUCH....Trey Songz is 100% RIGHT!!! SEX AINT BETTER THAN LOVE.....

A Word To The Wise....

Building relationships are the key to life. Maintaining them is the secret. Essentially our relationships, whether personal or business, reflect how far we go in life and how good life will be to us. With each person or situation that you meet, strive to understand their true purpose in your life. Accept that position for the most positive experience or higher learning. Do not try to hold on to relationships that have run it's course, but work on those relationships that continue to help you grow and mature. Recognize the difference. "