The "WAIT" requires PATIENCE, FAITH, STRENGTH AND A LOVE FOR JESUS CHRIST LIKE NOBODY KNOWS OR COULD POSSIBLY FATHOM. The "WAIT" also sucks monkeys balls....I'm here to tell you!!!!!! I am 32yrs old and I've been "WAITING" since I was 18yrs old....But you know what I've just figured out? Thats my PROBLEM....I'VE JUST BEEN WAITING....Sitting around "waiting" when instead of waiting I should have been LIVING. I should have been reaching, planning, praying and moving. FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD...Yes I believe God has tremendous things in store for me but I can't just sit on my hands and "WAIT" for these things to fall into my lap, I have to take the neccesary steps to bring these things into fruition. Not to mention if I'm WORKING as opposed to sitting around "waiting" than I probably wouldn't have time to notice how long or hard the "WAIT" actually is!

So when I came up with idea for Operation "Heal 100 Hearts" I was ECSTATIC!!!! I know, recognize and can perfect my strengths so I knew from the thought alone I would be GOOD at this. I immediately went into the planning phase but as always old faithful appeared....Little Miss FEAR with her pretty gold crown. "What about those women who YOU have offended? And Disrespected? And Fought? And Talked about? And Misunderstood? And Been a b*tch to for no apparent reason? And looked down on? Or thought you were better than? When they see this they're going to look at it and laugh! Phuck out of here! Khadijah need to heal her own heart!!!! But than my new boo CONFIDENCE came speeding through in her drop top Ferrari and knocked that heifer FEAR down!!!! "Khadijah you are NOT perfect and in your past you had some ways about you hunni. (Some just for Gods sake we should all want to forget!) BUT you identified those ways, worked your tail off to find out what caused you to be that person and afterwards made it your business to CHANGE! You realized that the pain you were holding on to was only hurting YOU. Now that you've released it you are not only a DIFFERENT person but a better one! You have to keep in mind that no matter how HARD you work to change there will ALWAYS be some people who are comfortable hating and being enemies with you because of the old you. ACCEPT THAT. You've HEALED more hearts than hurt them! Be proud of that and continue on with your journey...THIS IS GODS CALLING ON YOUR LIFE, TIME TO STOP RUNNING AND ANSWER HIM!

Operation "HEAL 100 HEARTS" Is a mission geared towards the rebuilding, rehabilitating and reshaping the thoughts, actions, behaviors and hearts of women between the ages of 21-45. (Those numbers are subject to change). Throughout my observations and experience I've encountered many broken women including myself. Most of these women have been broken from childhood and/or from experiences they've had as adults and were not able to recover from. Women NEED nurturing, care, honesty, love and support. There is NOT a lot of places to go get that. There isn't a lot of people who know how to receive it or give it. You know the phrase "happy wife, happy life" it is so TRUE! Women are the center of the family, they provide nurture and care and they also speak life into their significant other and children. But there is no way for a woman to provide that level of care if they're not receiving it. Operation Heal 100 Hearts is there to provide that. I am going to reach out to 100 women btwn the ages of 21-35 (again, that number is subject to change) providing a listening ear, a nurturing spirit, encouraging words, motivational speaking and honest feedback. No I don't expect to "fix" people, no I'm not a therapist and no I don't expect things to change overnight. I just want us as women to take a look at OUR destructive behaviors and start working towards constructive ones. Let's take back the power we've given men, jobs, circumstances and love and it use it to speak positivity and success into our own lives. WE ALL NEED SOMEBODY TO LEAN ON!!!! If you would like to volunteer to be a participant in operation "HEAL 100 HEARTS" please feel free to inbox, text (9175923638), call or e-mail (dijahk@aim.com) me. I'm headed to the top if you're coming come on!!!!!

Some people honestly don't know what it feels like to win.
Most of the time I'm on the phone or face to face having conversations with people who NEED encouragement. Who NEED to hear you can do it, I believe in you, keep pushing, etc but some of the people I'm conversing with is having a HARD time even understanding or comprehending what I'm saying because they've NEVER seen it actually happen. I have. I've seen it happen for my students, my family, my co-workers and oftentimes MYSELF. The feeling is so freakin OVERWHELMING and AMAZING that EVERYTIME it happens I'm brought to tears. But the one thing I can HONESTLY say about the win is ITS NEVER EASY. You have to fight each round strategically, differently, and harder than you fought the last. But I realize the only reason I'm even able to continue to fight is because I have been a witness to what happens and how you feel when you finally reach your goal.! But what about the people who never make it to the finish line? What about the people who ALWAYS encounter the losses? Those people start to doubt if there is any real "winners." As I said before I'm here to encourage people so my response to them is YES! And you're actually one of them. See people make plans in their head and when their plans are not carried out exactly the way they saw them then that's considered a "loss." For example I set an 80lbs weight loss goal in one year. BY JUNE 1, 2015 I WANT TO HAVE LOST 80LBS. If I only lose 50lbs is that considered a loss? NO! You know why?????????? Because from June 2013 to May 2014 I gained 30lbs. So any weight loss whether it be 10lbs or 100lbs is a WIN for me since I didn't lose any weight at all last year. For all of my self proclaimed "losers" look at your life OVERALL. List all of the positive things you've done, list all of your strengths and on top of that list I want you to put in big, bold letters "MY WINS" because believe or not you DO have some and you can obtain many more but the first step is having that belief that it can happen. We all NEED somebody around to motivate, encourage and believe in us BUT its so rewarding when we motivate, encourage and believe in ourselves! GO AND GET YOUR WIN!!!

I accept my losses...I don't cry about them, I don't complain about them, I don't drag them out, etc. I ACCEPT them. Only because the pain I feel from the loss could NEVER amount to the joy I feel when I've won!!!!!! I have been working with the youth in Brownsville since 2007, changing not just their lives but my own! There isn't enough money to pay me for what I do. There aren't enough interviews done to acknowledge the POSITIVE changes that our young people are making, there isn't enough media coverage done to highlight Brownsville for their POSITIVE efforts. WELL I WILL!!!!!! I'm going to continue shining the light on so many of your youth and THEIR changes THEY'RE making to become BETTER people. What I do is not something you go to school for or get a degree in it's something that you have to have first hand experience in and that's LOVE!!!! I don't pay these kids, I don't promise them a better life or a greater future....I LOVE them as they take POSITIVE steps to get there! And no matter how UPSET I get with them....The love NEVER changes!!!! I thank God for the ability to continuously do that even at times when I'm confused about how. As long as I approach everything with LOVE everything I touch turns into GOLD!!! New ventures on deck so I guess it's safe to say I'm on the money team...We're headed to the top if you're coming....COME ON!!!!!!