So I just wanted to go over some things that I've realized about myself that I NEED to work on.

 A) FEAR....It's crippling, it's a hindrance, it's a dream killer, and it's stunting my growth. KHADIJAH YOU WILL NEVER KNOW IF YOU DONT TRY! And if you do FAIL get up, dust yourself off, and try AGAIN! Keep trying until you succeed...Do NOT accept failure! You've been there, done that, and it has not done anything for you.

 B) CONSISTENCY.....If you want to achieve a goal you have to work at it diligently! You have to approach it different, revamp it, believe in it and accomplish it! The only way you're going to do that is to REMAIN CONSISTENT!!!! No matter where you are, what's going on in your life or who you're with...KEEP GOING!!!! There is light at the end of the tunnel.

 C) BELIEF.....The key to obtaining anything you want in your life is BELIEVING that you deserve it! If you can't see it happening you won't work for it!!! You are among the long list of people who deserve to be HAPPY!!!! But if you don't believe it, you'll NEVER achieve it. Have faith that it can happen and it will happen in Gods time. Until then eat it, drink it, breathe it, love it, nurture it and than you'll begin to BELIEVE it!

 I've decided to break up the next year of my life into quarterly intervals just so I can focus on my short term goals. Once I accomplish short term goals I can start to see the bigger picture and work on long term ones. The one thing I've learned this past year is that there is NOT a lot of time! I also realized that I wasted a lot of it ruining my life as opposed to making it better. No more of that. I want to make things better before I don't have a chance to do so. So for the next 3 months every single day I'm going to work my ass of at being FEARLESS, CONSISTENT, AND BELIEVING!!!! With Gods blessings I'm turning my cants into cans and my dreams into plans....

I'm friends with, related to and keep company with people who fill me up. People who day in and day out intentionally focus on all my right instead of pointing out all my wrong. I've observed that as a young, black woman residing in Brooklyn thats the hardest thing for some of us to do. Most people (women in particular) are so hell bent on tearing one another down that there is no room, time, or focus contributed to building each other up. Many people are not comfortable with the fact that I am actually FRIENDS with so many different women. Its been said that when you can mingle with different crowds that you're "mixxy" or phony, I strongly DISAGREE. I think women are drawn to me because EVERYDAY I work towards the contribution of building them up! Of course there are times when I have to have uncomfortable conversations that require harsh and REAL dialogue but I'm mindful of women and feelings so I make sure to send the message the same way I would want to receive it, that helps to gain respect.....And once these conversations are had WE move forward. They're NEVER used against the person for my own personal gain or to humiliate them. AFTER THE REAL TALK COMES THE HEAL TALK. We all make terrible mistakes, wrong choices, and bad decisions. Being ridiculed, constantly reminded, and persecuted for them don't make them any better but only makes the individual even worst. My initial approach is and will ALWAYS be LOVE, especially with WOMEN. It doesn't matter if I know you personally or not. My compassionate heart won't allow me to be any other way. AS WOMEN WE GIVE EACH OTHER THE HARDEST TIME! I've watched some women mold their daughters into full blooded b*tches, I remember I used to be one! But God is good to constantly show me the error in my ways and for continuously allowing me to grow! I hope that all of my past indiscretions have been forgiven and I pray God gives me the strength to forgive all of the b*tches I had and have to endure. I'm OVER giving other women a hard time, I'm here to love and be loved in return.