Sunday, April 29, 2012

#DontJudgeMe I THINK I'M FINALLY STARTING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT ALMOST EVERYBODY ELSE IN THE WORLD ALREADY KNEW.....When you really want something, you CANT sit on your hands, with your eyes closed, repeating it over and over again! U HAVE TO GET YOUR A** UP, PUT SOME MUSCLE IN YOUR HUSTLE, ADD HARDWORK, CONSISTENCY, & DEDICATION, AND TAKE DAT SH*T!!!! For the last 29yrs I've been "hoping, wishing, and praying" for things to come to me INSTEAD of getting my a** up and going to get them! Well guess what???? Somebody put me on to the way the game is played and AINT NO STOPPING ME NOW!!!!! *RUN WITH ME OR RUN FROM ME* #ItsJustThatSimple

Monday, April 23, 2012

.....I FEEL GOOD. Today I did what I PROMISED myself I would and I PUSHED myself beyond my limits. For the last 29yrs I've lived in FEAR! Fear that becoming GREAT would be too much for me.....Why????? When thats exactly what GOD wants me to be? Nothing that has occurred in my life happened by accident. All of the LOVE, PAIN, FEAR, HEARTACHE, DEATH, LOSS, FIGHTS, DISAPPOINTMENTS, AND TEARS HAVE PLACED ME WHERE I AM TODAY AND I AM DAMN PROUD!!!!!!!!! I remember somebody telling me they couldn't be who they are had it not been for me and the things I've said and done to and with them. Those moments are what I live for!!!!!!!!! When I leave this Earth and people get the opportunity to speak about me, I want them to say I BROUGHT THE BEST OUT IN THEM....Everyday I strive to bring the BEST out in myself. I AM NOT PERFECT...I detach when I've been hurt.....I'm clingy when I LOVE.....I'm EMOTIONAL and because of that I keep my guards up! Atleast once a week I NEED to let out a GOOD cry, I've grown dependent on my weave....And a host of other ish I could name BUT the bottom line is I've ACCEPTED who I am and the parts that I haven't, I'm working on changing! *I LOVE ME*

Sunday, April 22, 2012

HEY GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know its been a while BUT SHE'S BAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Took a little time off to regroup, re-evaluate, and redefine my life. This year has been a BUMPY ride. More downs than ups I must admit BUT I WONT dwell on that so I'm gonna call those downs "experiences." So for the last 4 1/2 months I've had some very DIFFICULT "experiences!" BUT as always GOD brought me to it, then brought me through it and because of that I am truly GRATEFUL! For the last 30yrs of my life all I've done is COMPLAIN, and see the glass as half empty as opposed to half full. I had NO faith! I begged and pleaded with God when things were at its worst and forgot to thank him for all that he has done even when I wasn't at my best! WELL NO MORE OF THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD MADE ME SPECIAL....He blessed me with certain characteristics because he wants me to use them and my influence to impact the world in a POSITIVE way. I HAVE CHANGED. I remember there was a time when I had to have control over ALL situations around me, people had to see things my way, and I had to always be RIGHT! Living my life in that fashion brought me ALOT of heartache. I DONT HAVE CONTROL OVER ANY SITUATION, God does. NOBODY HAS TO SEE THINGS MY WAY, only Gods way. Not everything I say and do is RIGHT, I AM NOT GOD!!!! And how arrogant of me to believe so! But thats where GROWTH comes into play. THANK YOU JESUS FOR THE ABILITY TO SEE THAT THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME BUT ABOUT TAKING THE JOURNEY THAT YOU HAVE SET FORTH FOR ME AND TRUSTING YOU TO MAKE IT ALL WORTH WHILE. I am NOT perfect and I know I will make plenty more mistakes in this lifetime BUT I ask God that you walk with me, guide me, love me, and teach me how to be the woman YOU want me to be. God please remove any anger, malice, revenge, frustration, and venom from my heart. Give me the STRENGTH to pray for my enemies and trust that you will fight that battle for me as opposed to me trying to control the situation and fight it for myself. Thank you Jesus for the spirit of EXPOSURE! Thank you for exposing people's true character and allowing me to see who and whats best for me. Also, thank you for giving me the strength to leave those people in my past and move on to a promising and fulfilling future. Last but not least let me take the time out to thank GOD for everyone he's placed in my life past, present, and future. I ALWAYS take a lesson with me after EVERY encounter and experience I have and because of those people I have learned so much about the girl I was and the woman I'm meant to be. I'm in transition. Its NOT easy but God has reassured me that ITS WORTH IT! So with that being said from this point on its ONWARD & UPWARD.... *I KNOW I WAS BORN TO BE GREAT*

Saturday, April 7, 2012

I've ALWAYS had the mindset of "I AM GREAT TOO" as opposed to "I AM BETTER THAN YOU!" Only because I was raised to believe in my heart whatever God's plan is for me is custom made for ME!!! I NEVER had to compete with people to shine, because when you're a TRUE STAR EVERYONE around you can not only see it but they can feel it....AND TRUST ME WHEN I TELL YOU ITS A WONDERFUL FEELING!!!!