So my 'Dirty 30' B'Day weekend has officially come to a close.....In all honesty I can say I'M THANKFUL!!!! I spent the last 30 years of my life WORRYING....I HATE THAT FEELING!!!! I'm learning to realize that I have absolutely NO control over what is going to happen to me in my life. I can only CONTRIBUTE to what direction I want my life to go in....I have concluded that after all is said and done....I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!! The equivalent of happiness for me is LOVE....REAL LOVE!!!! From family, friends, co-workers, relationships, and any other encounters I have in life. But the only problem I seem to have is LOVE is displayed differently from different people. I HATE THE WAY SOME PEOPLE LOVE!!!! BUT I have to respect it....Just as well as I have my way of expressing my love, other people have theirs. So with that being said its very HARD to distinguish who's way of loving I want to ACCEPT.
I'm having trouble figuring out which bridges to burn and which to cross....
But I also know that GOD will provide GUIDANCE and that is most certainly what I NEED. I just have to pay close attention to the signs. I have to stop denying whats being revealed right in my face. Its just that regardless to how obvious it is, and how beneficial it may be....It still doesn't change the fact that sometimes..........THE TRUTH HURTS!!!!!!!!!