Wednesday, December 18, 2013

I REALIZE WHAT WE (WOMEN) ARE UP AGAINST...... Alot of us are ALONE....Keyword: ALONE I have to point that out because I've noticed that that word is almost ALWAYS partnered with LONELY.... THESE ARE TWO VERY DIFFERENT THINGS. Loneliness breeds desperation. When you're desperate it manifest in your behaviors, so when we find ourselves settling for just sexual relationships or third party relationships, or abusive relationships or unhealthy relationships thats because none of that matters you just yearn the companionship. Being ALONE is wanting the companionship and just not having it but the difference is you're NOT settling in the process. You're being patient and strong enough to wait on what you DESERVE. Many women are single. Many women are confused as to WHY they're single. I can't speak for all the women in the world but I think I realized what my issue is (or should I say was). I put too much emphasis on physical, mental, and sexual connections without taking into consideration that all of that means NOTHING without a spiritual connection. ESPECIALLY for a Spiritual person! (Duhhhhhhhh right?) So just like any other woman I was looking for the most handsome man, the most fly man, the man with the biggest d*ck, and the smartest man all packaged into one. Reality sent me the big d*ck idiot, the ugly fly guy, the smart bum, and the arrogant jerk. And don't get me wrong ALL of these people were liked and fun at some point but they were also TEMPORARY. WE ARE ALL LOOKING FOR LONG TERM. So when reality hit that the fun was over and that man is gone, those temporary feelings can sometimes cause permanent damage. That damage can cause hurt, that hurt can cause anger, and that anger gives birth to the BITCH that most good guys encounter. It is not our desire to be damaged, hurt, mean, or angry but some of our experiences have forced our hand to protect our hearts. Me personally I was in that same space until I realized that WHAT I AM IS WHAT I CHOOSE. My experiences were unfortunate just as any other woman BUT it was my choice to decide whether they would kill me or build me. Personally its no fun being a b*tch so I decided to LET GO of that pain from my past!!!! And to assure that I don't have to suffer anymore I've decided to seek men who are I share a SPIRITUAL connection with and we're heading down a similiar SPIRITUAL path. Its more rewarding. God forbid we ever have to separate physically we'll ALWAYS be in sync spiritually and that connection can keep that person in my life forever.....

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  1. This is very true. I think women need to learn to love themselves FIRST then seek out love from others.

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